2020 you have already been such a WORLD WIND, and I honestly can think I speak for everyone on that note. This year so many people, including myself, expected a different outcome. Three months in and I am pretty sure no one expected the result of how 2020 has already started. The WORLD is at a standstill, and home is the only location that anyone feels safe. Exercise is a luxury and leaving the house is truly a privilege. Thankful for my health but scared to for everyone else’s. A world that will not get on the same page but with people who are in fear of their lives. A virus that you never know the outcome of for each person but also an illness no one wants to take the chance to find out. The prayer is overflowing for everyone’s lips to their higher power, hoping this will end soon. Flu season is upon this pandemic, and sinuses are at an all-time high. These are all facts but complaints that people are saying. Missing family, friends, and all loved ones. In everything going on, what else would you think to do but complain?
No matter how much you help.. you feel as if this will NEVER END. Thankfully the end will come, and the fear will disappear. The people you miss have not left you, but taking this time to do what we all should be doing as people. Take this time to reflect. Take this time to reach out to people you have not talked to in a while, and to remember to finally do the things you never feel, “you have the time to do.”
No one at this time can direct or tell anyone on how to handle this situation best.. and if you can (H E L P ME)! Instead, you can do the things for yourself that you genuinely believe that is right for YOU!
In this time, I believe for myself, the best thing I can do is reflect on myself. Yeah..yeah.. yeahh I know I have BEEN doing that but one thing I have learned in all this.. you cannot ever stop learning. I am the weirdest, most confused, broken, introverted/extroverted, happy, numb, and insane person I feel. (crossing out what you want to hide doesn’t make the feelings go away.. just hides what you have to one day face) How I think of myself is not what the world sees in me and, of course, makes me wonder how people can see me differently than I can see myself. Why is that.. because they have learned about me to create that opinion, and that person that they have met is someone I work every day to try and reach as well. It sounds crazy, but so is the world right now. Use this time to see the mad as less crazy and this world for what it is. Your one chance to make your mark, show your point, and live it how you want. -LAME I KNOW… but you only do live once- I know so many people went into isolation with the mindset that they finally got it together and guess what to all of you… YOU DID.
Now let’s take this time to come back EVEN BETTER… KEEP GROWING.
Scary I know but-
KEEP LEARNING
KEEP PUSHING HARDER
KEEP CHANGING
KEEP WISHING FOR BETTER DAYS
&KEEP DOING THINGS TO BETTER YOU!
I know from how I just described myself how could I give that advice, especially at a time like, but just as I said earlier… I do not see in myself what others see in me, and the person that people see me as is strong enough to tell you that you got this. I am going now be the person who is looking back at you to remind you of who you are when you do not see in yourself. I am the person looking at you telling you.. you got this and will get through this. Times are scary, but what is scary to keep living life after this scared. It is ok to be afraid of and not know what is coming next is defiantly one of the biggest triggers of fear, but just think if you go into those scary times ready to kick there ass and to handle anything life throws at you, it will make those moments will be a little less fearful.
As I said, I don’t know everything, and honestly, I don’t even know what is next for me, but I do know my fears are something I am GOING to break, and the first step is to stop letting fear control my mind.
“beauty comes from inside.. share your beauty no matter what society says”